For having to wait so long, I gotten numb over the excitement of moving to a new job.
For the sake of leaving "history" to my successor, I decide to clone my Outlook mails using Portable Thunderbird while deleting away my personal mails.
While I did not read through my mails, just glancing at the email subjects reminded me of my initial vigour when I landed this job; how I set up a folder system to manage my mails; the attention I paid to keeping records. Where has that gone to?
My mails also tracked my networking with ex colleagues and friends and I lament the fact that I have to re-establish email contacts with them. I would also lose the rapport I have took so long to build up. For a moment, I thought, "Why move?"
In a cold detached analysis, I move because it is good for my career; I have learnt all I could. I dislike the supervisory behaviour of our MD. I resent the perceived favourtism over his own countrymen. I felt trapped by the way the company is run as a tight ship.
On a personal level, I feel indebted to my Shijie and small boss. I have lunch kakis that I like and will thus miss. Reflecting this always make one feel sad. However, as I put on the title in one farewell mail - "Alea Iacta Est". "The Die Is Cast". We should look forward, not back.
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